So I realized that for awhile now, I’ve had major issues trusting God. Not in the sense that I don’t believe in Him or that I don’t want to follow Him. Much deeper issues–let me explain.
I often listen to and observe what is going on with our country and get internally frustrated. I’m not a huge person for politics, mostly because I’m not educated on the issues enough to really know what I’m talking about, but I react my own way like most other Americans. When I see how we allow immigration to the point that I wonder when I’ll be the minority, when I see how people continue to get more and more tired of what they perceive as “God” and what religion has become in America today, and when I realize that other movements like Islam and Mormonism seem to be growing at a much quicker rate that Christianity…I realize that I don’t really trust God.
I don’t really trust Him because I get an uneasy, worried feeling whenever I think about these things. I wonder what role I should play in “making things right” but I’m left overwhelmed and confused. I was reading a Psalm the other day when God really laid this on my heart. It says:
“Arise, Lord, in your anger; rise up against the rage of my enemies. Awake, my God; decree justice. Let the assembled peoples gather around you, while you sit enthroned over them on high. Let the Lord judge the peoples…Bring to an end the violence of the wicked and make the righteous secure–you, the righteous God who probes minds and hearts.” –Psalm 7:6-9
So, while I don’t know what the future holds, and especially what my role should be–I know that God is the ultimate One in control and that He will be the perfect judge in the end. That makes the future a lot easier to accept.