Until My Heart Trusts My Mouth

I got to see one of my friends from out of state this week. Andy Cherry was in town and played a house show that we got to be a part of with Communion Wine Co. Andy is a worship leader as well as a singer/songwriter and recently hit one million streams on Spotify for his amazing rendition of Nothing but the Blood (see: Spotify link).

At the show this week Andy played a number of songs off of his upcoming album. He asked me if I’d lead us into a time of communion in the middle of the show. I shared a bit about the process of making wine involving crushing, pressing, and draining and then shared a bit of my journey this last year (hint: it has felt a bit like crushing, pressing, and draining). But we made room to experience Jesus in the midst of it that night together.

You could feel the connection of the Holy Spirit at that moment as the song Andy sang just before it tied so beautifully together with what I felt led to share. I asked Andy if he was okay with me sharing the lyrics to that new song—called Mighty is the Name of Jesus—and he gave me the green light. What I appreciate so much about this song is that it isn’t the normal song of victory or success in God, but rather dwells in the pain of following Jesus when it’s really hard.

No height or depth
No strength or wisdom
Can stand against the name of Jesus

Though heartbreak comes
And sickness shakes us
My solid ground is the name of Jesus 

Mighty, mighty, mighty is the name of Jesus 
Mighty, mighty, mighty is the name of Jesus 

When all I have 
to drink is sorrow
The well is bitter
And my cup is dry

My sustenance is ever flowing 
A living water 
A strength divine 

Mighty, mighty, mighty is the name of Jesus 
Mighty, mighty, mighty is the name of Jesus 

I’ll sing your name when disappointment triumphs
I’ll sing your name when cancer is in my house 
I’ll sing your name when I do not desire you 
I know there’s power deep within the sound 

I’ll sing your name when I must bury family 
I’ll sing your name when all the money’s gone 
I’ll sing your name when I’m not sure you’re listening 
Your power isn’t bound to what I know

I’ll sing your name until I see the victory 
I’ll sing your name til I run out of doubts
I’ll sing your name til I believe you’re working 
I will not stop til my heart trusts my mouth 

I’ll sing your name so that my wife can witness 
I’ll sing your name so that my son takes heart
I’ll sing your name so that for generations 
There will be no shame for those who trust in God

There’s so much I love about this song and I can’t wait for you to be able to hear it. But perhaps my favorite line is this one: “I will not stop until my heart trusts my mouth.” That idea has felt so true in my journey with Jesus. Often I know the right things to say—the things we should say together—but my heart doesn’t always believe it. And rather than feel shame for this (as sometimes happens with Christians), I’ve felt Jesus patiently and lovingly and even joyfully making room for it with me. For anyone who has endured a painful experience with a church or with Christians, you may need the same space with Jesus.

You don’t have to wait until everything makes sense to follow Jesus. You don’t have to wait until everything feels right. You don’t have to wait until the tensions or problems are resolved. In fact, you may never get to that place that seems to work for other Christians. But together, Jesus invites us to say: “I will not stop until my heart trusts my mouth.”

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You can find out more about Andy at AndyCherry.com.

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Jeremy Jernigan

Speaker | Author | Founder of Communion Wine Co. https://linktr.ee/JeremyJernigan

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